Booo~

I don't know why but I'm been pretty down in the dumps lately. I feel like I have no more motivation. I just feel like crap. I've actually been feeling this way for a while now :| I should really sleep now, but I don't feel like it. I want to study more, but it's hard for me to find the motivation to do so. I don't know anything anymore. I hope by the next update, I'll be back to my old self.

I'm free!!!!!!!!!

Done with finals! YYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! I'm FINALLY FREE!!!!!!!! These fews weeks of hell is finally over! I feel so free, like a free humming bird, or a butterfly :D. A few of us went to celebrate at this restaurant...it was an Asian restaurant, and I was sad because my food wasn't what I expected and it was kinda gross. I'm not gonna say that kinda restaurant it was because I don't wanna be racist towards a race of Asians because I generally do not like that type of food (like Ms. Alexandra Wallace). But as you can tell from this picture of me, I wasn't genuinely excited, hah.

Also...I look like crap, like a zombie...I hate finals week, that's all I can say. HAHA, wow, that looks like a pretty bad picture XD. Sad that I wasted my money too ):

Speaking of Alexandra Wallace..ugh, I don't even know where to begin. I mean, she's a freaking 3rd year! WTF, if she didn't figure out that UCLA was one of the most diverse Universities in California in those 2.5 years, then there is something really wrong with her. And to think that these kinds of people are able to get into UCLA, it's like how is that possible? Then again, I'm sure there are people who get into UCLA with a really unpopular major of choice just to get in, and then change it after. Anyway, gosh, how rude and inconsiderate of her. Although I think death threats are a bit extreme, I still think she needs to be disciplined. No, I wouldn't want her to die because if she did, by the hands of some Asian person, then it'll make us Asians look bad. But I still feel like that she was sorry that she got caught, not genuinely sorry for what she said and did. Whatevers, I'd say just leave her fate to karma. Karma's a bitch.

Poor Japan :[. I feel so bad for them. I mean, so many things in our lives are from Japan. Cars, TVs, electronics, games..etc. It just seems so harsh for something like that to happen to them. I might be desensitized to looking at those mutilated corpses/cadavers in anatomy lab, but just the thought of all those dead bodies from the tsunami and the stench is pretty sad. Especially if some of those bodies are of young people, who haven't had the chance to live out their lives to the fullest. Sigh. If I was making my bagillion of dollars as a dentist right now, I would donate a crap load. But for right now, I guess a little still helps. So if you get the chance, and have at least $10, you can donate here: https://american.redcross.org/site/Donation2?5052.donation=form1&df_id=5052&idb=0

But anyway, Spring break here I come!!!!!!!

Crunch time!

Finals are a coming, and all I have been doing was trying to study. Sorta...I ALWAYS get distracted somehow. UgH. Either I find something other than studying to do, or I doze off while trying to study. More of the latter, I almost fell out of my chair when I dozed off. Like you know how the rotating chairs can lean backwards? Well, yeah, that's how I almost fell out of my chair. And lecture SUCKS because I can't stay awake either. I keep nodding off. Seriously, I think sleeping in class will be how my classmates define me from now on D:

These days are when I wished I had more fun when I had the chance. Sighhh.....

I always seem to don't be able to accomplish my study goals. Like I wanted to finish studying the automics system, but I haven't even touched that. I only got two lectures of histology done. FAIL. Ugh, I hate myself.

On another note, I wished I had better money management in terms of spending xD. Hah! It seems like I'm always too impulsive when buying stuff and I end up not even using them. Another major fail.

My head hurts >.<

So Stressed!

Finals are a coming, and I'm super stressed about it. I forgot a lot of what I learned in the beginning of the quarter, and it's starting to really freak me out. I feel like I won't have enough time to study everything that I need to, and it doesn't help that we don't have any kind of dead week and our finals are all stacked after each other D: AHHHHHHHHH~! I'm seriously freaking out. But when I study I keep falling asleep, and it's so hard to get stuff done. I can't wait until Spring Break :D. party time!

I hate Mondays

Who came up with Mondays? I hate it so much. I DESPISE Mondays. Most horrible day of the week. I don't know why but I couldn't fall asleep until about 3am yesterday night. I laid in bed for about 2 hours...But I was amazed that I didn't fall asleep in class like I always do, hah. Ironic isn't it? When I don't get as much sleep, I seem to be okay, but when I do, I tend to oversleep, like my other post when I got to class late.

But I still hated today. I forgot my computer in the classroom after I left. It wasn't until an hour later that I felt like I was missing something. Thank goodness when I rushed back to get it, it was still there. Although I felt a bit embarrassed walking into a class of D3's. I felt like everyone was staring...and it didn't help because I left my computer in the front seats. Then not long after, I lost my keys. But I found them in my bag xD. OMG, I was like freaking out.

And then, when my friend called my name today, I turned around and hit my face on the wall between the doorway. UGH. I don't know what was wrong with me today.

When I got home at around 5, I just KO'ed until about 8pm. I guess it was time to catch up on some sleep. But overall, I'm pretty happy about my progress today. Got my study goals done. Although my head is hurting pretty bad right nows ):

Perfection.

I'm a perfectionist. Any little thing that isn't perfect will have the tendency to drive me crazy. But I've learned to let go in some aspects. I feel like that I'm a lot like Claire from Modern Family. It's just my nature to try and make and keep everything perfect. So the thing that really helped me get over my OCD-ness of being a perfectionist were these quotes (which were from Modern Family, I love that show :D. Makes me want to have a family even more :DDD) I don't think I'll get them exactly, but it was something along the lines of "if you keep trying to find flaws in something, you won't be able to appreciate the whole beauty." Actually, that sound sounded pretty bad, I'm gonna go look it up right now and get it right..ugh oh, I think that's my OCD perfection side talking again. Okay, got it!
"Sometimes it's a bad thing like when everyone else sees something beautiful, when she sees the tinnie tiny flaw."-Phil Dunphy
"And you, you would be a lot happier if you weren't so obsessed with everything being perfect."-Jay
So true, so true. I'll try my best to not let small things bug the crap out of me. I really don't like being like this, but I can't help it. D:

I've been pretty traditional in that I want my significant other to be Taiwanese, or some type of Asian. But now, I'm not so sure anymore. I mean I'm getting attracted to guys of other races, mostly because of their defined facial features, and bigger eyes. It so hot..:D. I mean, there's Asians with really defined facial features, but it's not too common. I'm happy to say, I am one of those uncommon Asians, haha. See:

Actually, one of my mom's friends actually asked where I got my nose job. I'm was flattered yet kind of offended at the same time. FYI, all naturale~~ is it so hard to believe that Asians can have nose bridges? I also like how my eyes are big :].

I think I'm getting sick..AGAIN! And right before finals too. My head is trobbing, probably from all the studying. I should probably get some rest.

Beauty Sleep

This week hasn't been too great. Lets see....Today I was late for class, not just like 5 minutes late, more like 30 minutes late. When I woke up, I saw my clock and it was 8:15am, I was like "SHHIIT." By the time I got to class, I kind of stood in the door way to see where I should sit, and the professor saw me and said "You can come in." It was so embarrassing :X. I don't understand why I couldn't get up at 6:30, I mean, I even went to sleep early last night too.

And then yesterday, I TOTALLY forgot my lab manual for dental lab. UGH, so I had to rush home, and get it. I'm so out of it this week.

Another thing is I keep falling asleep in class. I tried REALLY REALLY hard to keep my eyes open, but I just end up looking like I'm spasming because my eyelids are twitching, and probably only half of my pupil can be seen lol.

I just got into Modern Family, the show's pretty funny, haha. I wish I've found out about it sooner.